It is definitely true that having your own children causes you to have a new appreciation for your parents. Since becoming a mother myself I realize even more what an amazing mom I have. She is always patient, generous with encouraging words, strong in her faith, and the most giving person I've ever known. I have a particular memory from childhood that stands out as an example of who my mom is and the kind of mother I hope to be. It is a simple, everyday sort of memory that my mother most likely does not even recall. When I was in first grade the school bus pulled up to our driveway one morning and I anxiously ran to get on the bus. Our driveway was gravel and sloped and in my haste I fell down scraping my knee, ruining my tights, and humiliating myself. I knew that I shouldn't have been running and realized I deserved a reprimand for my carelessness. But I remember my mom gently picking me up, brushing the hair out of my face, wiping away my tears, and calmly telling the bus driver that she would take me to school as if it wasn't any inconvenience at all. There was no scolding, no ‘how many times have I told you not to run down the driveway,’ just unconditional love when I needed it most. That's the kind of mother I want to be. I am not naturally as selfless as my mom and often have to bite my tongue so as not to say, "I told you so.” I fall far (very far) short of being the perfect mom and pray God’s grace will cover my inadequacies. I am so grateful to have such a wonderful role model for mothering as a mom.
The past few months have brought a new journey for my mom as she was diagnosed with lymphoma in August. Once again I am amazed at the joy that she has amidst such difficult circumstances. I am learning from her how to truly surrender to the Lord’s will. I used to think in terms of committing to doing God’s will. But it’s more than that. He desires for us to surrender everything to Him. He wants to show us that He’s all we need. Yesterday I was able to escort my mom to her weekly chemotherapy treatment. It was her sixth treatment and the second time that I have been able to go with her. We enjoyed several hours of conversation and even while she was sitting in the chair receiving chemotherapy my mom was talking about ways that she could reach out to others.
Thanks, mom, for being such an amazing mother and example of authentic Christian living.
Rightly so that you would singing your mother's praises. She does indeed have a heart of gold and such a spirit of servanthood. You too have so much of her nature in you! By the way, the photo you now have on your blog is AMAZING! That is something to be proud of. All your guys are happy, smiling and its becoming of all of them! What a lovely family!
ReplyDeleteGreat blog post, Gretchen. Writing offers an opportunity to share one's heart and soul with others, and I loved reading this entry and hearing what was on your heart. I agree, your mom is generous not just with her time and money, but with her life. Also, the photo of the boys is awesome, and where did you ever find such adorable coordinating outfits?! :-)
ReplyDeleteI read this with Susannah and told her ahead of time not to let me cry, but I had to anyway! Thank you for YOUR example to me of love, discipline, patience, and organization! I do remember that day clearly. You've always been a joy to raise!!
ReplyDeleteLove you so much,
Mom
I am always touched at how wonderful your family is, but I was moved to tears when I read the praise you gave your mom in this weeks blog. She is a truly exceptional person, and you are right when you spoke of her servanthood. She is beyond anything that I could ever hope to be, but yet, she has continued her legacy in you Gretchen. You are both great examples of God's generosity, love, and grace. I am touched, through your story, and can see it as if I were there. Your mother's love for her children goes beyond words, and her love for others is shown daily through her actions. I am blessed in calling you both family. Love, Trish (Auntie Trish to you!:))
ReplyDeleteYour Mom gave me your blog site last Sunday. I have enjoyed reading it and can relate to some of your stories. Your Mom is a very special person. She is always telling me to take a break from teaching when I know deep down in her heart she has to be worn out. All your boys are so adorable!!!
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